he was there for me when nobody else was

he was there for me when nobody else was.... that's it, it's all I have to say... idk why, but today I'm feeling so emotional, and I just wanna write about what I feel for James, cause when I'm feeling down, he's always here for me, ALWAYS, even without knowing that I exist, he gives me strenght to keep fighting, to keep dreaming... he can make me smile, and that's a thing that only him can do to me when I'm feeling like this! I wish I could thank him, you know? idk, I feel that I need to do that! I'm so proud of him, I'm so proud of being his fan, when I talk about him I just smile like a fool and... idk, idk what I'm writting to be honest, I'm just typing and typing and typing, and probably this doesn't even make sense... but I needed to do this, idk why, maybe this is like "my way" to say thank you to James!

this might be crazy but, to be honest, it's what I feel... when I'm feeling down, sometimes, he's all I have to make me feel better, he's like my "shoulder" when I need to cry... and now you're thinking "omg, so crazy, so stupid, she feels this for an artist?" yes I feel, and idk why, I don't even know how this happened, but James became a big part of my life years ago, and I don't even know how to live without his music... cause he's much more than just a singer for me.. sometimes, he's everything that I have... and I just wanna say thank you, so... thank you James, I love you

I just need a second with him

I've been without writting for a while, not because James is not important for me anymore, of course!!! he gets more and more and more and more important for me every single day...
I could talk about James all day, cause this that I feel for him it's something big... I don't like to call it an obsession, cause I think it's not true! I just love him, his songs, the way he his.... He made me met amazing people, he saved me years ago, and he keeps me helping every day! he's so humble, and his voice is so perfect... he says exactly the words that we need to hear, he sings exactly what we feel on his songs...
Sometimes I feel a little bit more "sad", well sad it's not the right word, I think but... well, sometimes I feel "sad" with the idea of ending up my life without meeting James! it's strange, maybe crazy, idk how to explain! it's just.... I have so much things to say to him, I have to thank him, I wanna hug him, I wanna feel his smell, that everyone says is the best, I want to be in front of those blue shinning eyes, you know? I know my heart will beat fast and fast and fast, and I know that probably I'll stay there looking like an idiot, but... it's my dream! I just wanna say thank you to the person who helps me A LOT every day, even without knowing... am I asking for too much? I don't think so, but I don't know...
James has something special, something that touches my heart and my soul... he's the only one who can make me smile with a photo, or a video, he's the only one who make me cry of emotion, he's the only singer that makes my heart beat fast... idk if I'm crazy or not but, it's what I feel! when I listen to that perfect voice on the radio/tv, my heart skips a beat and I sing like crazy, I smile like crazy, I get so so so proud of him!! what's this? idk, but, I don't wanna know, tbh! I just know that I love James, that I will always support him and that he will be ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS the special one!

James, I love you my idol... I wish I could meet you soon

he's much more than an idol

my dad doesn't understand my feelings for James... I think, my dad, my mom, my sister, my family, my friends, nobody understands... they try, I think, but they can't understand! I'm so sure about that... James is much more than a singer, songwritter, musician, idol, or all the names I can call him... he's much more than that! he saved me, he's like my angel... I was so lost, undiscovered, I was so depressed, sad... I didn't know why I was living... I cried every nights, I was a sad girl, I didn't believe in people, because I was hurt by them, with words and some awful attitudes... I was so so down, and it was so scary for a little girl with only 13 years old.
I was leaving a school, I was insecure, I was so down... I didn't know what to do with myself... but, I started listening James, and, it was like the awakening for my life, you know? I don't know how to express my love for him! this is not a disease, I'm not crazy, I'm not obsessed... I just love him! he's everything to me! without him, I wouldn't be happy, I would
n't be here probably... cause, he started giving me reasons to live.... to be happy! and I identify myself with his songs, so so much... he was just like me... he was lost, he was undiscovered, he felt bad about himself, sometimes... and I felt bad about myself too, I feel bad about myself too, sometimes...
I'm not a crazy fan, I'm only a girl who was saved by him.. I don't know what to say... I think, "Precious Love" says all... "I was so lost, didn't know what to do with myself, I was my worst own enemy, I was lost and oh, I needed help (....) you picked me up, when I was down, showed me how to live again." It's all... James showed me how to live again, he taught me so many things... he taught me that "when it all falls down, the only way is up", he gives me strength everyday, he makes me happy with simply things... without him, I would be even more lost, I would be undiscovered forever, without him...
I'm young, but the society, and people of my age, aren't good for different people... but, because of James, I'm happy now! he saved me... and, nobody understands that... James gave me strength to make new friends, to be happy again, to smile, to meet new people, to fight for my dreams... and I just wanna thank him, one day, I just wanna hug him, and say "thank you James... you changed my life, you saved me... I would be lost, so lost, without you"

melhor dia da minha vida

19 de Julho de 2013. Praia do Cabedelo, Vila Nova de Gaia, Porto, Portugal. Margarida Lucas. Objectivo: chegar à fila da frente para ver o James de perto. Medo: muito. Companhia: busker family

vou contar-vos então, a história do dia mais feliz da minha vida...

andei a contar os dias para ver o James desde Dezembro... foram exatamente 204 dias, desde o início da minha countdown... sempre fui falando deste dia, sempre chateei toda a gente com o James... mas foi no twitter que me senti compreendida, e foi no twitter que conheci as melhores fãs do James, de sempre.
cheguei ao recinto às 10h, tal como o combinado. faltavam então 13 horas para ver aquele britânico sexy, de olhos azuis a brilhar, e com o seu grande sorriso no rosto. fui a 4ª pessoa a chegar ao recinto. sentei-me no chão, e comecei a falar com a Isa, fã que já tinha conhecido semanas antes, no facebook. conversámos, e de repente, comecei a ouvir o som de Nothing Ever Hurt Like You... como ninguém se manifestou, achei que era da minha cabeça, e decidi manter-me calada... mas não era da minha cabeça! era a sério! era o ensaio do James... no entanto, uma outra fã, que já esteve em vários concertos do James, disse-nos que ele não estava lá, e que era apenas a sua banda... mas estava enganada! ele estava lá! e percebemos quando ouvimos aquela voz sexy e rouca soar, na Praia do Cabedelo, apenas com ainda 5 pessoas à porta. Eu e a Isa corremos para junto do palco, mas pelo lado de fora do recinto, como é óbvio, pois este ainda se encontrava fechado... pelo caminho, encontrámos a Ângela e a sua amiga, Beatriz! e foi aí que a Ângela subiu o muro, e viu o James, o James estava ali, perto de nós, a fazer a soundcheck... Ângela tirou uma foto, e pudémos ver a filha dele, e a mãe, a assistir ao ensaio do nosso britânico favorito! a filha, é loirinha, muito fofa, tal como imaginei! juntas gritámos, e chamámos por ele, mas em vão... ele não ouviu, nem viu nenhum dos tweets que lhe mandámos, a pedir para vir cá fora, como era de esperar...
mas a busker family não desiste, e após a chegada da Débora, recebi um telefonema da Isa, a dizer que iam esperar pela saída do James, depois da soundcheck... doida por ele, como sou, juntei-me a elas, e ficámos todas à espera de ver a carrinha do James sair do festival. e vimos! vimos mesmo! era uma carrinha preta, com vidros fumados, que não nos deixavam ver o que estava no interior do carro. mas, começámos a dizer adeus, e a mandar beijinhos, mesmo sem ver o que estava lá dentro... a carrinha parou, e o James abriu ligeiramente o vidro, e disse-nos adeus, com a mão... eu não estava em mim, eu não acreditava no que se estava a passar! tudo era um sonho...

eram 14h, e quase todas as fãs da busker family já tinham chegado... começámos por escrever na camisola, que mais tarde atirámos para o palco, e continuámos a conversar até serem 17h (hora da abertura das portas). senti um aperto no coração, e um nervoso miudinho antes das portas abrirem... porque tenho a noção de que não sei correr, e tinha medo de não conseguir ficar na 1ª fila... mas a busker family apoiou-me imenso, e talvez tenha disso por isso que consegui atingir a tão desejada front row!
abriram as portas, e corri como se não houvesse amanhã... tudo dependia daquilo, e correr não é o meu forte.
quando chegámos à grade anterior ao palco, fui das primeiras, mas, pediram para sair da fila indiana, e fiquei numa espécie de 3ª fila, longe de toda a gente... foi super injusto, e cada vez perdia mais as esperanças de ficar perto do meu James... a rádio comercial, falou com a minha busker family, e infelizmente, não apareci, porque fiquei muito longe delas! mas mal abriram o portão, comecei a correr de novo, e, como o terreno desta vez era terra batida, e não alcatrão, caí no chão. aí, tudo desabou... só conseguia pensar que iria ficar super longe do meu James, e que ele nunca iria reparar em mim... mas a minha prima, foi o meu anjo da guarda, apanhou-me, ajudou-me, e juntas corremos rumo à 1ª fila do palco MEO, na praia do Cabedelo!

chegámos ao palco, e era na 2ª fila onde nos encontrávamos... fiquei contente, porque não era muito mau, e porque nunca acreditei verdadeiramente que conseguiria ficar na 1ª fila. mas, umas fãs de David Guetta, deixaram-me passar, e... cheguei à 1ª fila!! as lágrimas caiam de felicidade, porque sabia que iria ver o James de perto, e que, depois da cena do carro, talvez ele me reconhecesse...

antes de qualquer concerto começar, eu e a busker family, pendurámos a nossa linda faixa, e no ecrã do palco, vimos o teste de ecrã... este teste, era feito com as letras do James, o que nos deixava cada vez mais ansiosas!

começou o concerto dos Orelha Negra, e nós só queríamos que acabasse! para além de não ser o nosso estilo de música predileto, queríamos era ver o James! apesar de tudo, até gostei e ouvir os Orelha Negra... em seguida, foi a vez dos La Roux, e o meu coração começou a ficar cada vez mais apertado... faltava 1h30minutos para ver o James, para ver o meu ídolo! para o momento que esperava há mais de 204 dias! umas senhoras pediram para ficar à frente, e deixámos... deixámos, mas não consegui aproveitar o concerto dos La Roux com os nervos... só pensava que elas poderiam estar a enganar-nos, e que iriam roubar-nos o nosso lugar! foi então que deixei cair, outra vez, umas quantas lágrimas... após o concerto dos La Roux, acabámos por recuperar o nosso lugar na frente, e tivemos uma atuação da equipa da comercial, onde cantámos o hino do Marés! it was like "MARÉS VIVAAAAAAAS! NO CABEDELOOOOOOO! MARÉS VIVAAAAAS! SE TU NÃO FORES, CHEGO-TE A ROUPA AO PELO!". o Vasco Palmeirim atirou-se para o público no seu barco insuflável, e despediu-se com a sua celebre frase: "isto tem tudo para correr mal"

e chegou o momento... o James entrou em palco, com Under The Influence! e eu comecei a cantar que nem uma louca! as lágrimas de alegria  e emoção escorriam-me pelos olhos! foi algo que nunca tinha sentido antes! o James é mesmo especial! o concerto aconteceu, e voltei a emocionar-me na Broken Strings, porque toda a gente estava a cantá-la com ele, e ele estava tão feliz, que eu só conseguia chorar de felicidade! felicidade em estar ali, a ver aqueles olhos azuis brilhar e ver aquele sorriso apoderar-se do seu rosto, e a fazer-me sorrir também. voltei a chorar na I Won't Let You Go... porque ele dedicou-a à filha, que estava lá com ele... foi lindo, toda a gente cantou! ele estava feliz, e só sorria! eu gritava e dizia-lhe adeus! mandava-lhe beijos! mostrava-lhe a camisola que fizemos com ele, juntamente com a Joana, gritava que o amava, com a esperança de ser ouvida...
as lágrimas voltaram a cair na The Pieces... porque ele canta a música com alma, e coração! e a música é tão triste, que só me apetece ir a correr abraçá-lo, dizer-lhe q vai ficar tudo bem... mais lágrimas na Precious Love, porque descreve exatamente o que ele me fez, como ele me salvou, como ele me fez ver o mundo com outros olhos! ele é o meu amor precioso, e não o vou deixar ir!
O James bebeu cerveja no palco, e fez também imenso movimentos sexys! movimentos que nos deixaram nas nuvens, e doidas! exemplo disso foi Nothing Ever Hurt Like You, Slave to The Music, e a parte final do concerto, em que ele levantou a camisola, e tivemos a oportunidade de ver os seus abdominaizinhos! Mas que gato, o nosso James, né?
ele voltou a falar do pai, e a dizer que tinha escrito In My Dreams para ele, para se sentir melhor... que escreveu para nós, para nos sentirmos melhores, quando perdemos alguém querido... James, por entre os milhares de sorrisos, e olhares, acabou por revelar que fomos um dos melhores públicos que ele já teve durante toda a sua carreira, o que me fez sentir muito orgulhosa de mim, e da minha busker family...
abandonou-nos depois de You Give Me Something, mas voltou em seguida com The Awakening e Wonderful World! foi lindo... ele viu o meu cartaz q dizia para ele me dar a toalha, e riu-se! ahah, até fez q sim com a cabeça, mas depois não ma deu! mas não interessa! foi perfeito na mesma!
o que ele mandou para o público foi palhetas! a Débora teve a sorte de apanhar uma, e deixou-me tocar-lhe! eu toquei numa palheta! ai, god... e o Neal também atirou as baquetas! infelizmente não apanhei nada material, mas consegui apanhar muitos sorrisos e olhares do James, e isso, vale mais que mil baquetas ou palhetas...

Após o concerto, tentei sair da multidão, mas foi difícil, pois tinha 24 mil pessoas atrás de mim... acabei por me perder do grupo, mas tudo acabou bem, e juntas continuamos a conversar sobre o concerto, a ser malucas juntas, a tirar fotos e a filmar um vídeo de parabéns para o nosso british boy favorito, que está quase a fazer 29 aninhos! acabámos a fazer vídeos a falar sobre o concerto, e em seguida, tivemos de nos despedir... cada uma foi para seu lado, viver a sua DPJM  (depressão pós James Morrison)... mas acho que conseguímos suportar esta depressão juntas, não é? porque dia 19, eu conheci a minha busker family, eu vi o meu ídolo ao vivo, eu vi-o no carro e ele disse-nos adeus, e eu vi a mãe e a filha dele... eu não posso pedir mais nada! foi o melhor dia da minha vida. e agora vou esperar para voltar a vê-lo, em breve, espero eu... 

(till then I'll wait, to see him again, in my dreams!)

he makes me happy

I can't express all my love for James, in words... It's someting big, something special! I don't know how to explain it! I just love him, he's my shelter on rainy days, he's my idol, you know? I can't imagine my life without his voice, without his laugh, his smile, his music, without him! he makes me so smile with only a "following you" on our fans' account! I can't express all my love for him in words, it's so much better, so much bigger than this words... and I love him, I just love him... maybe I'm crazy, okay, but I love him, a lot..

His laugh makes me laugh, his smiles makes me smile, his music makes me sing really loud, and he helped me a lot! and keeps me helping... I just need a hug from him, I just need to say to him that, he's my everthing, that he helps me a lot, everyday, at every hour, that he makes me smile even in the darkness times! and now, you are reading this, and you're thinking.. omg, she's just crazy! maybe I am, but I don't care! 

Today, James followed our fans account, and that, just made me a happy girl, a happy fan, a happy busker! and I'm sure that I'll love him forever, cause this feeling, will never die! 

I love him, and I'm hoping to meet him one day, I'm waiting to see him this summer.. cause he doesn't give me something, he gives me EVERYTHING! and, because of him, I'm not undiscovered anymore! so thank you James, thanks for your music, and thank you for being the person who you are! I love you, and I'm a slave to your music, I'm a slave to you... and, do you wanna know one thing? I DON'T WANNA BE SAVED! 

A letter with the songs' names :b

Dear James, I'm waiting to see you for more than 6 weeks, I just love you, and if I could, I would travel all around the world just to see all of your gigs, just to live a beautiful life seeing you almost every days!
You're a better man, year after year, and without your music, the strings would be always broken, You help me a lot, but sometimes, be your fan also burns like summer sun, because you don't know that I exist. You can call the police, because maybe I'm "crazy"  but, I just want that you come back to me! well not just to me of course, to us, to my country, because here we love you so much! So, don't close your eyes if you see me James, because I just wanna be with you for a little second...  but well, I'll keep dreming on, just like Hayley! You may not know, but you fixed the world up for me, your music helped me a lot when I was more "down", and keeps me helping, of course, your music will help me always, and I'll be your fan forever! I just wanna get to you, but it's hard! You're always moving on, you're always chasing your direction ("How come you always wind up chasing your direction?" - music time!! ahah, sorry, but what I said remind me this song :b)... but it's a normal thing, you're an artist, you have to sing to all the world, and show to everybody your big talent! that's why I would like to be rich, just to see all your gigs all over the world! ahah, sorry! I'm sure that when I see you this summer, my 1st tough will be "omg, I won't let you go James!" but I know that after the gig, you really have to go, and I'll be here waiting to see you again, even if the rain fall, even if you don't wanna "love me", even if you don't know that I exist! I'll be here waiting for the next gig! Anyway, you'll be here with me, always, in my dreams! I don't need to ask if there's anybody home, because, you're always with me, in my heart! You tough me that love is hard, and sometimes, we have to move on, sometimes, it's too late, sometimes, it's time for our uprisings! I love you James, you're my idol, and nothing ever hurt like waiting to see you, like know that you don't know that I exist...  but I know that we'll always be on the same

side, you and your fans, James and buskers, always! well, maybe, one day I'll meet you, and then, I'll say to my sons "once when I was little, I met my idol..." It's one of my dreams! I need to meet you James, could be my one last chance meet you in July, you know? Life is too short, we only have one life, and we have to live it right! am I right? ahah :b I don't wanna thing about the person I should have been, I wanna be that person, now! and you helped me with that! we helped me to realize that sometimes, also the rain is good, and sometimes we just have to say "please don't stop the rain", because, rain could be bad but, she can also teach us something really special! Life is precious, love is precious, so, I wanna be right by your side, just for a second, just for a little while! I just wanna say that you helped me, A LOT! you also taugh me that sometimes, we have to save ourselves, and say the things all over again to the world, say the things, the important things all over again, to all the world know! So, now, you could say something... say something now, just for I know that you know that I exist! Don't let me here sitting on a platform waitting to see you again, being a slave to the music, a slave, to YOUR music. As I already said, you helped me a lot, start listening your songs was the awakening for the real music, was the awakening for my life! Now, I don't wanna say "this is my last goodbye", no, I don't wanna give up about my life anymore.... So I'm wriiting this letter, because I wanna be with you just 1 minute in one only night, 1 minute is enough for me.. and without you, without your music, the pieces don't fit anymore, because this girl, is under the influence of you, of your music, and because of you, she isn't undiscovered anymore. Now, she knows that, when it all falls down, the only way is UP, always up. So I'll be here, I'll watch and wait to meet you, because, well, this is a wonderful world, right? (:
well, James, you... You give me something really special, you... well, you make it real for me! I love you my idol! ♥

125 days *-*

I could talk about James all day, all the week, well, all my life! and some of my friends are a little bit tired of me, because I'm always talking about James! they say: "omg, you're CRAZY about him!" well, maybe I am, I don't know! I just love him, I love his songs, the lyrics are perfect, I love the person he is, he has a big heart, and well, I'm "in love"  with him... I don't know how to explain that to you, because, it's a feeling that even I don't know how to explain. he is the only artist whom  I call "idol". It's the right word, "idol". The taught me the meaning of the word idol, he taught me that "when it all falls down, the only way is up" e taught me so many other things, he makes me keep going, he makes me happy, his music, his interviews, his laugh, his smile, his videos, everything about him makes me smile! when I listen him on TV, or at the shopping center, I stay really happy, and I start singing like a fool, I start smiling like an idiot!
this year I'll finally see him, I'm counting the days to see my idol, to see him for the first time! I don't know, I think my heart will explode when I see him, omg I can't wait anymore, I have to see him now! but well, I have to wait just more 125 days, and then, I'll live the best day of my life!
because of him, now, I'm more happy, I knew a lot of nice people! he taught me so many things, he taught me that "we only got one life, so, we have to make sure that we live it right"! I don't know how to thank him! Maybe one day, if I meet him... (well, I think I'll never meet him, but I'll keep dreaming)!
I just hope that he never stops singing, because his voice is the best and one of the most precious things in the world!
His songs help me a lot, omg, you have no ideia how much happy I was when I knew that James wrote a song here in Portugal, trying to do something like "Fado-music" (the traditional music from my country) :D
I just can't wait to see him, I love him, and I'm really proud of him, so I'll keep waiting to see him, just more 125 days, you can do it Margarida, right? of course I can! so yeah, I'll keep waiting, to see my idol, not just in my dreams, but this time,  in the real life! :D